Day 10 – Feeling Physically Good, but am Sad

Blood Pressure 125/78 Pulse Rate 57 268 pounds

Day 10 of dieting and the weight loss is frozen for several days now at 268 pounds. This is where I get frustrated, so right now I really have few distractions…well that’s not true. But I must remain vigilant because whatever happens over the next year, I will drop this weight.

I am sad because the woman I love tremendously will not come home. It has been over five months since she left and I realize this is probably permanent. At this point I have to move toward legal separation and/or divorce. Love is most wonderful and excruciating and right now it hurts beyond the pale.

Mrs F, where did we go wrong?

Down 3 pounds from Last week

Why the heck do I bother with this, I don’t know.  I’m down three pounds from last week, but down only two pounds for the year…that is extremely pitiful.  Under the circumstances, I think that’s pretty good, as the last five months have been the worst period of  my life.   My greatest loss is Mrs F moving out.  She was my soul mate but I guess we drove each other over the edge.  Well, enough whining.

Maybe if I am lucky, I can now focus on this dieting thing and proceed forth trying to lose 100 pounds.   Right now I will focus on walking over 10,000 steps per day, listening to nutritional podcasts,  very hard rock, the blues, and chill music, and keeping track of my food.  I’m two days into  restarting my diet and it’s been rough.

I watched Little Miss Sunshine today and it was excellent.  My big mistake today was eating hard boiled eggs with Mrs Dash instead of salt.  That made me gag.   GROSS!  I am still feeling a slight turn in my stomach.

My supplements right now are:

Aspirin
Vitamin Pill
CoQ10
Potassium
Fish Oil

It’s  time to go out and walk again and then prepare for work.

Monday Stats

Monday started off well but ended badly, cuz it’s rough when you love someone but cannot see eye to eye anymore.  Arguing with Mrs F is debilitating.  I joined Walker Tracker to keep myself mentally sane, not as a means to lose weight.  Walking does keep me grounded.  Yesterday’s total was 6822 steps.

I’ve got to stay motivated because this is going to be one intense year.

Fat and Full and Fermenting

I loaded up on fat and protein and cut the carbs. Now I gotta continue. Workouts shall begin shortly. My back has been killing me so I’ve got to lose this gut. I’m afraid to pull out the tape measure and get an accurate reading of my waist circumference. Maybe in a week or so. Right now I’m glad I’m back inFitday keeping track.

Mrs F has decided to leave the team, and go find another team. That sucks royally. Team Fat is over. Unless she decides to move back home, I’ll be pursuing this dieting on my own. I wish her the best.

For now it’s just me, my two cats, Shakespeare and Jürgen, and my two bearded dragons, King Zard and Hyacinth. Good night.